Confusing.

You confuse me,  and no just a bit. You make me insecure about my own feelings, and though I know that you are just a friend. I hope that youll be mine forever. Cause I really really like you. And I always will.

Are you Real of are you Fake?

Are you Real of are you Fake?
Cause I do not know anymore. You hurt me so bad, and though you are the one who knows how much Ive been hurt in my life? Isnt that enough already? Seems not. But Thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game.

Homework.

"Sometimes my homework is small 
Sometimes my homework is long 
But whenever i do my homework 
My homework is always wrong" 

I found this. I guess that its quite true. I hate my homework. But i have to do it really quick now. Cause otherwise i will not go to Barcelona, or Milan, or wherever in Europe I would love to go. Soooo byyyyyeeeeeee

Have I been wrong?

When you think everything is going right, actually a lot is going wrong. Three is a bad luck number for sure. Three friends never work out. One will always be left. So is there with school, friends and sleep. If you combine sleep and friends, you have no education. If you combine school and friends, you have no sleep, but if you have sleep and school. You have no friends. I belong in the third group. See? Three again. When my homework goes well and I sleep enough, my best friend leaves me, but can I call her a best friend if she does this to me? After all ive done fo her. Is it me then or is it her fault? Or is it no ones fault? A lot of questions, with no answers...

Things will get better.

"Things will get better." I found it in my Spanish workbook, and actually it made me smile. Cause i realised that when i wrote it months ago, i was right, cause at this very moment things were getting better. I mean, yes I have had a lot of stupid fails the last few months. But that was just because I didn't work hard enough for it. And because I worked hard yesterday, and today, I finally felt what I needed to feel. The spirit that would keep my head up. The spirit I missed. And where it came from, I do not know. And actually i do not even care about it. Yes I am a happy girl right now, and yes I am a sad girl. And though, I chase my dreams, and I always will. And right now, my goal is not the city break my mom promised me if I had no more fails from now on. My goal is to become an actress, and a good one though. And i desperately need my education for that, cause although my English is pretty good right now. It can always be better. And it will be. Cause right now. I promise myself that i will never ever give my dreams up. Ill die for them.